Lacking Common Sense

Sometimes, actually all the time, I feel like I am always asking dumb questions and I am being judged. At home, I tend to say things that don’t make sense. When I think about saying something I know that my family or friends will laugh at me. So, sometimes I keep it to myself because some things just don’t need to be said or asked. Before I ask questions I’m confused as to what’s going on and I’m unsure about it. Even after asking a question I am sometimes still a bit confused, but I don’t necessarily ask the question I want to right away.

Most of the time when I am at home or around friends I tend to ask stupid questions, myself lacking some common sense. Whenever I ask the question I get called “stupid,” or told, “you’re dumb.” Which I will admit sometimes I do ask some pretty simple and broad questions, but a good majority of the time I actually don’t know the answer to something. Also, when I ask a question at home it’s because I wasn’t listening in on the conversation and just go off on a limb guessing what they’re talking about. One time while I was at home my family and I were all talking about Italy and my sister going there for her senior trip. Of course me lacking common sense, I said “Are you driving there or flying.” Take a moment to realize how dumb that question is. Like I genuinely do not know what I was thinking. After I asked the question everyone was laughing at me and I didn’t know why. My stepmom then said, “Brianna you can’t drive to Italy…That’s impossible.” So, ever since then they bring it up occasionally saying, “Bri are you going to drive to Italy?” There are so many times where I ask or say dumb things. Still to this day it’s an inside joke between my family and I.

Asking questions in school is a whole different story. I’d say a good 75% of the time I don’t ask questions in the middle of the class, like raising my hand. Most students would look it up on google or ask a classmate for some help. Some things I google are the definition to a word, or where something is located. In reality, my friends are never right about the question I ask or they say “I don’t know.” And in th end, I always end up asking for help from the teacher. When I do ask a question in class, it’s never really a dumb question. I just don’t understand something or the organization of how I’m supposed to do something. The only time I can remember when I ask questions in a class is when I say, “When is it due?” That’s the most common question I ask in any class. It’s not a dumb question, but I just feel as if I ask this question over and over because I forget what the teacher said. At school, I feel like I’ll be judged or something along those lines. But during the end which is more important? Being afraid of being judged or succeeding in school?

One thing that I have realized is that no matter what I say to anyone outside of school I’m going to get laughed at, but I don’t get upset over it. I’ve accepted that I lack common sense in many ways and sometimes I already know the answer to things, but I ask it anyways, to reassure myself. Asking questions in school will always be a thing I struggle in. I don’t think I’ll ever feel embarrassed about asking a question in school to a teacher because it’s what you’re supposed to do. But, at home is a total different thing.

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