The Spiders Web

Patience can take time, and waiting can be so useful like when I had been stuck on a web. Some things only change in time and some don’t which I had to be patient and see. Getting used to writing sitting and taking a test or being at the end of a line. A time I had to be patient was much different and something not everyone has to deal with.

As a back story, I had troubles with my father and he had made some tough decisions that I decided I shouldn’t have to deal with those decisions. These had affected my mental health so over time through the summer I made the tough decision to stop seeing my father. This wasn’t what I wanted nor what I planned, but I chose to do this and see if I did this maybe he would see the decisions he made and realize how it was bad for me and my sisters.

I spent months not seeing my father and it was like seeing him and talking to him made no difference in my life. This wasn’t a good thing, though as I missed him and waited for things to turn around. I watched my sister be hopeful for my father to make better decisions and as she grew hopeful, I did too. She could turn any sad melody sweet. But sweet melodies taste like sweet poison when you learn the truth of what goes on behind the scenes.

As I was hopeful and my father reached out, took me and my sisters out on father-daughter dates I came to realize he hadn’t changed and in fact, made things worse. He walked the wrong path swearing to us that he wasn’t, sweet lies that no one was fooled by.

I still waited for an explanation. Some hidden truth in his words, but the web was too big and all of us were caught in it. I had waited for months in it and all that helped me was my mom. I still want to believe he can change, but no one will know till he takes down his web. My patience helped me see the truth, although it took months, almost a year, the spider can’t trap me anymore, I won’t let it. My sisters and I will not be caught in this web anymore, I will not let it.

“dew and spiders web – Devon – Oct 2019” by Dis da fi we is licensed under CC BY-NC-SA 2.0