Why I’ve Gotta Trust Myself More Often

⠀⠀A decent amount of the time, I go against my gut, …and then I regret it. This could happen right after, or even days later. I will cover a decision of mine that I eventually ended up regretting in the future. You see, it’s all these little mistakes that get me. This is why I’ve tried to learn not to second guess myself. Unfortunately for me though, I’m the type of guy to have to pee on the electric fence, THREE TIMES, to finally feel the shock. Or, well, to learn of course.

⠀⠀To give one of the mild examples here (in reality, the best one I can remember at the time of writing this), a little while back, I had gone to an estate sale. It happened to have a whole bunch of neat old stuff that I snagged. However, there was a small radio alarm clock there as well, the exact style I’ve had wanted. Heres the catch though; it didn’t work properly. Me, being naturally indecisive about things, I was unsure if it would be worth it. It didn’t help either that my Pepere was breathing down my neck about it, saying it was just a waste of space. So, without weighing my options, I passed up the opportunity, even though they probably would’ve given it to me for free. A fews days after I felt a little bit of regret, then it all started to pile up on me. I went to a thrift store with friends, and saw a similar radio clock that was for sale for a definitely less than reasonable price. After that experience, I had started dwelling on it, thinking about every reason why I should have gotten that clock: How I want to learn to solder, the way I want decorate my room, et cetera. Many moments of my free time I had spent going, “Dang man, I really shoulda gotten that.” in my head, as funny as it sounds.

⠀⠀Eventually I learned that the best I can do is just trust my gut in the future, and keep an eye out for more opportunities to seize. Now, after that huge bummer, I’ve been going to a thrift store about every week, and estate sales when they pop up. Look, I know I might sound obsessed, but it isn’t just about the clock. You never know what might fall into your lap; it may even be quite the bargan!

⠀⠀The biggest lesson I’ve learned from any of my past mistakes, is that the past is is the past! That’s all it is. Yes, there’s definitely a lot I’d like to go back and change, but that’s just not possible. Besides, there’s plenty of future to make up for it. Live in the moment a little, it’ll do you some good as it has done for me. Live it up, go for things, thats what I always tell myself. That’s all I’ve got, take care now! 🙂